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Death: All That Comes, Must Go.

I feel like I write a lot about religion, because religion is so near and dear to me. I pray my future kids, husband, friends, coworkers and acquaintances can feel as close to a feeling as I feel. It makes the inside of me tremble just writing it, and honestly can get my tears ducts spouting if I think about that feeling for a  few seconds more.

I love feeling connected to higher calling. That being said, lately, I have been thinking about something that we all will go through: DEATH.

Death scares me, because as close as I feel to religion and understanding it, I feel just as far from understanding “death”.   As a believer, I know where all my eggs should be when I think about death; Islam provides me with guidance. But for some reason, it sits a funny way with my soul. I cannot get my self to feel comfortable with it. I’m not sure if I’m supposed to get comfortable with it, I think it is just something I have to accept.

I have to be thankful that I fear it, and that it constantly reminds me to make the most of all of my relationships in this world. Death reminds me to spend a few extra minutes each day talking to my mom and checking in with my dad, it reminds me to hug my husband extra tight and to make sure I look into his eyes, it reminds me that I should enjoy cheesecake, and also reminds me that if I want to enjoy a few extra precious moments with my loved ones I should probably put down my favorite diet drinks (which apparently aren’t that good for you – boo).

After writing all of this, I understand why we need death. It helps you appreciate “now”, because there may not be a “later”.

Also, I wanted to thank each and everyone of my readers! I don’t have too many, but I have enough to be thankful for your love and support. Writing has always been away for me to feel connected and has always allowed me to explore the deeper meaning in any event going on in my life. I hope I can inspire you to write, and to contemplate things that are uncomfortable.

Love and light.

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Thrifty Couple Alert

I’m a young associate and my husband is a resident. For some reason, my husband and I live like we are both college students with AN INCREDIBLY LIMITED BUDGET. We really do not have to live this way, but we do it (subconsciously I think) to pay off my student loans ASAP. This thriftiness has lead to a TON of funny stories of schemes we try to run with coupons, Ebates, repairs and making things last.

I know one day we will have a lot, or at least not have student loans and will have the OPTION to do a lot without feeling guilty, and I hope we can remember these “simple days” of a washing machine that only emits SCORCHING hot water on all the water temperature modes. In an effort obtain “warm” water, I throw a ton of ice cubes into the washing machine. The quality of the wash has ruined a few of my clothes since it seems to leave a HEAVY lint/calcium deposit lines on my clothes (which actually causes me a TON of rage), but today the BEST THING happened.

Back story: My sweet, sweet, sweet husband’s had to purchase new underwear due to the fact that scorching hot water has been doing a number on the elastic band on his underwear.

Present Day:  Today I got a text from my husband, his underwear has apparently been falling under his scrubs. LOLOL.

I honestly have a lot of work to do today, but it is moments like these were I am so happy to share my life with him, through the ups & the downs, and I love that we are always laughing, even if its at our own expense.  In an effort to never forgot the heavy heart-ed laughter I am feeling, while completely alone in my office, I decided to share this with you <3.

 

 

Poof. You are an Adult. Don’t Be Scared

Hi Friends,

I recently posted the following video:

Initially I was a little nervous about it  – thoughts like “What are you doing?”  and “You’re an attorney not a vlogger”  crossed my mind, along with other thoughts of colleagues stumbling upon it or random acquaintances tuning in-  but then I thought, I have always put myself out there, and this was NO exception. I have always wanted to do YouTube, but my own fears of what others would think seemed to ALWAYS hold me back. Just like this space, I have no idea if it will be dedicated to one aspect of my life, or will grow into something where I can experiment with my hobbies and interests.  We shall see. I hope that you will join me a long for the ride, and I hope that you will try something of your comfort zone soon too :).

Bye!

Want to look cute for class?

Life as a graduate student means putting in the hours all day- everyday, even the weekend while you’re visiting your best friend. The outfit featured here consists of: Green Studded Pants from H&M ($39), GAP Jean Jacket ($30) , White sheer shirt from Marshalls ($10 or $14), Steve Madden Sandals ($30 Summer 2012), Ralph Lauren Aviators from Century 21 ($30) & MK watch.

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This outfit looks effortless & so cute! The weather outside was in the mid 70’s, but the library was in the mid 60’s, so it was an excellent idea to layer up!
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